My motivation is like a shrunken thing in the sun, shrinking and stinking. People call, people email, send me things, I can't respond. All I can do is nothing. What a jerk I am. What's wrong with me?

I don't feel like a very good friend to the friends I have right now.

And how funny that I have accidentally gotten reaquainted with a whole slew of old friends from Kansas City, via Friendster. One girl contacted me, and now I'm connecting with all these other lost-losts through her.

But if I can't even connect with the ones I have already, what am I doing with these new ones?

I know it will pass, but in the meantime, I just feel like a total asshole.